Thought Catalog never ceases to amaze me. I love everything about what they write. Especially this one. Enjoy :)

You said at dinner, "I'm curious what your favorite moment with me was." And I said- No favorite moment. You are my favorite moment. If that makes sense? I mean, everything you are is just this huge beaming circle of light in my mind, and I can't parse that or define its contours; it's just this boundless warmth beyond any sort of linguistic reason. I can name good moments. But those would be so arbitrary. They would just be what came to me first when I thought of you. So right now the first memory that surfaces is the last time we had dinner together, and your soft face, and then because I just said 'soft face' I'm remembering this beautiful moment in a cab with you when we're coming back from some party and our faces were locked into one prolonged kiss the whole time. The night of my birthday, back when we first started dating, comes to my mind too (because my birthday is close). Sexually, I liked the moment on the dock in Italy. Spiritually, I like the moments when I'm sick and I need you so bad, and I hold you with all of dear life like you're medicine and how that actually makes me feel better. Biologically, I like the moments of smelling you and you smell, maybe, bad. But I like the smell - because I love you and everything about you is good to me, so I continue to sniff you. And I like that the fact that I'm probably one of the only few people that thoroughly enjoys that smell. You know love is infinite and impossible to detail, that's my answer. I imagine if I see you 50 years from now, without seeing you for 50 years, at first you would be foriegn, and it would be hard to invoke the way I feel about you right now... But after one glass of wine, a few hours of conversation, all these feelings would start to rush back like a deja vu that can't be shook off. It's time lost, and memory never serves properly, but I'm pretty sure I fell in love with you after spending only five hours with you. And I'm pretty sure I can't ever not love you. 

However, every time you choose to love someone despite the bullshit, you are making it stronger, you are painting a fuller picture. By choosing to love, you are accepting the flaws and the ugliness that comes along with something beautiful. You are understanding just how life works. (Thought Catalog, absolutely genius) 

The night before I left Arizona to head back to Nebraska and law school, my bests, Whitney and Coti came over to watch the Bachelor. Whitney, per usual, gave me the sweetest card, full of encouraging words and prayers. And, her mom gave me a wonderful daily devotional called "Jesus Calling." I try to be good on reading my Bible, but I have to admit that in the midst of everything, I don't read it as often as I'd like too. So, I'm super excited to have this devotional that keeps me in the Word daily. On January 15, the day I left I was reading my daily devotional and it was just what I needed to hear.

My Face is shining upon you, beaming out Peace that transcends understanding. You are surrounded by a sea of problems, but you are face to Face with Me, your Peace. As long as you focus on Me, you are safe. If you gave too long at the myriad problems around you, you will sink under the weight of your burdens. When you start to sink, simply call out "Help me Jesus" and I will lift you up. The closer you live to Me, the safer you are. Circumstances around you are undulating, and there are treacherous-looking waves in the distance. Fix your eyes on Me, the One who never changes. By the time those waves reach you, they will have shrunk to proportions of My design. I am always beside you, helping you face today's waves. The future's a phantom, seeking to spook you. Laugh at the future! Stay close to Me.

This winter break seemed to revolve around where I'm going to live post-graduation, what job I'm going to have and all the stress that comes with those decisions. After reading this, it put me at ease. God knows all the answers to my questions and I have to find peace in that. Because even when I don't have a clue where my life will lead me, He does and that gives me all the Peace I need.

I haven't been very blog oriented this break and for that I apologize. However, I've been enjoying my last (month long) break from school and avoiding the computer at all costs. This break was such a great time to spend copious amounts of time with my friends and family. We had such a merry christmas and happy new year and now it's time to head back to Nebraska. On Thursday I start my final semester of law school (and school in general). It's crazy to think, that in just under 5 months I will never be a student again! (Kind of exciting too). But as I prepare for this crazy semester of school, trial team, vacations, bachelorette parties and much more... I know I have to remember to take a minute to breathe it all in, because before I know it, it'll all be over. I was reading through old blog posts and I found the one where I decided law school was in my future, here it is, so enjoy! So here's to making each moment count, remembering the small details and enjoying the big ones. I hope everyone who's going back to school or has already started is enjoying every minute because it goes wayyy to fast. My dad sent me an email the other day with this quote in it and I just love it. Enjoy! 

"No matter what your passion is, don't let the negative outweigh your drive and determination to make it happen. In the words of Chad Reed, "dream big and go after what you want in life."