It's first day of school for all those 'Pepperdiners' and I can't help but feel a little pang of jealousy. I LOVE where I am right now in my life, even though it's not the easiest path I've ever chosen, it's great for me. But, I still do get a little sadness thinking about Pepperdine and everyone and everything there.
Have a great first day everyone. Enjoy it with everything you have, it goes too quickly. I stole this quote from Rachel's blog, and I absolutely LOVE it.
:: How did that little college do it? How did they get that priceless oceanfront property? How did they raise millions to pull it off overnight?’ For me, and thousands more, only one answer satisfies ineffably unrequited questions. This was literally and truly the work of God! This was the Malibu miracle! ::
William S. Banowsky
The Malibu Miracle.
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Whitney knows I have an obsession with the name 'grace.' Regardless of the fact that it's my middle name and grandmothers name, I love what it stands for - see this blog from long ago. For my birthday she got me this amazing smelling Philosophy perfume called Eternal Grace. They do quite an amazing line with all things 'grace.' On the perfume she gave me, it has this awesome saying.
"A graceful heart is forever young. Its beat timeless. Its joy effortless. Its capacity for love limitless. It transcends the boundaries of age, enticing others to tiptoe closer and delight in its rhythm. Open to new connections, a graceful heart invites others in to share dreams and celebrate innocence. Youth is eternal. Believe in youth."Just another reason grace is one of the best words.
It's a beautiful day today in Omaha. It's 75 degrees and sunny with a beautiful, cool breeze, almost like Malibu and I swear if you close your eyes tight enough, you can hear the ocean just across the street. And then, you open your eyes and realize that instead of PCH, it's Dodge Street. Instead of the Pacific Ocean, it's the Missouri River. Instead of Pepperdine, it's Creighton. Instead of walking the halls with my friends, roommates, sorority sisters, boyfriends and teachers that were like family, I have strangers, strangers and more strangers. This whole place is such a mystery to me. I know it's only been 10 days, but I feel like a fish out of water, and I just cant shake the feeling that sooner or later I'm going to drown. Everything is moving around me and I feel like I'm standing still, not able to move. Maybe if I had a blog 5 years ago when I started college, I'd be feeling the same sentiment, and I know it's going to get easier. I know I'll start swimming eventually, but I think as the week is winding down and school is starting to settle, I'm just starting to realize that this is my reality right now. This is my home, Omaha is my home. It always takes me a while for my homesickness to set in, and here it is. [I'm more homesick than ever]. I'm just counting down the hours till my mom gets here. Maybe then I'll start swimming, maybe then I'll be able to move.
So everyone, tomorrows the day. Tomorrow is the start of the rest of my life. I can't shake this feeling like I'm gonna get caught. Like I don't deserve to be here. Like someone, a professor, fellow student, they're going to call me a fake and tell me to go back to Arizona. But, I'm here, I did the work, I paid my dues, it's my turn to be the top of my class, to be the student that I've always wanted to me. I am not a fake, I deserve this, and I'm so ready for tomorrow. I feel like I've been waiting for this moment for years and it's finally here, its surreal. Tomorrow I'm a 1L, first year, bottom of the food chain. The nerves are setting in but the excitement is greater. I've been given the most amazing opportunity to do something great, and tomorrow is going to be a great day. I'm ready world, let's do this.
Day 23 - Share the most awkward first impression you feel you've ever given.
I think I just had my most awkward first impression the first day of my law school orientation. We had to get our picture taken with a piece of paper that had our hometown, undergrad, and undergrad location. So mine said,
Kristen
PV, AZ,
Pepperdine, Malibu, CA
This girl walks up to me and said, "oh, you went to school in Malibu?" This is all while she's glaring me up and down. I said yes, asked where she went and she said, "oh and your from arizona?" Keep in mind the death glare girls give. I was sooooo awkward and just kinda laughed and said yes. Right as I was about to ask her about herself, she walked away. I saw her a couple more times throughout orientation and she acted like we never met. Let's just say I hope I don't encounter any more first impressions like that one.n Remember girls, be kind.
Day 22 - Write about someone you would give your life up for without question.
Day 21 - Discuss your favorite medium of art.
Painting, it amazes me. I've grown up watching my mom and brother paint these amazing pieces of art. From my brothers piece of the world when he was in 6th grade to my moms recreation of me as a 2 year old (I'm not trying to be vain here, promise). I think it is one of the most beautiful expressions and I love how each one is so different and is such a unique representation of the artist. I wish I could paint, I can't draw a straight line with a ruler, but that doesn't mean I won't always be amazed by those who can.
Day 20 - Write about a band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them.
I'm pretty sure any girl from my generation would reference 'NYSNC or Backstreet Boys as one of those bands that changed the way they viewed boys. All of a sudden, girls realized that boys who can sing are incredibly sexy. For me, 'NYSNC defined my life from 1996 until now. Their first song was "I want you back" and ever since that song debuted, they have been one of my favorite bands ever. Every song they released became my new favorite song. I've never missed a concert and to this day I still love Justin Timberlakes' blonde spiked hair. They're my fav, always have been, always will be... I just wish they'd do a comeback tour.
Day 19 - Transcribe a passage from a book that has touched you.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Day 18: Post a picture that evokes emotion.
This picture represents one of the happiest moments in my entire life. Yes, it was my 21st birthday, but it was a time spent with my family and my best friends. It was honestly the happiest moment of my life. And this picture shows the three people in my life that mean the most. This picture evokes happiness, the best emotion I can think of.
Day 17 - Construct a post about what you would like to be remembered for.
This post was hard for me. There are a lot of things I hope to be remembered for, so it was hard for me to narrow it down to one specific thing. I want to be remembered for my faith, though sometimes quiet, its a strong faith. I want people to see God shining through me. I want to be remembered for the relationships I held. The love of my beautiful family, and the relationships I share with my best friends. I want to be remembered for the love I have for people and the constant need to show that. And last but not least, I want to be remembered for my courage. My courage to go and to do things greater than I could have ever imagined.
I hope I can live these things out every single day, and I'll die trying.
4 days ago, Coti and I started our (half) cross country adventure to Omaha. It started Sunday morning and ended last night in Omaha. We went from Phoenix to Albuquerque to Denver and finally to Omaha. We got to experience all that New Mexico has to offer, which honestly isn't that much. I got to see the house I was born in, in Littleton, Colorado and catch up with an old Pepperdine friend. Then, I got to show Coti around my new home, school and life. And, today, I said bye to Coti, officially making this little place my new home. I didn't think this would be that big of a change, considering I've done this before, but it's the biggest change I've ever known. I'm in a town where I know no-one, driving around cluelessly trying to find my way. I've never felt so out of place ever, but I know in time, it'll be my home. But in the mean time (or until I start school on Monday) I'm going to post pictures of things I love, watch TV and start mentally preparing for this great big adventure.
So, here are some from our trip:
Road-trip buddies.
Even Henry enjoyed the ride.
My house in Colorado!
My street!
Home Sweet Home?
Mustaches.
Walking into my apartment.
I've never missed Arizona more.
Without you Dad, I wouldn't be going to law school, or doing much else.
I'm not sure where I'd be without you. Thank you for everything you do for me.
These people making going away a lot easier,
because I know that no matter what they'll always be there.
Thank you - all of you - for the best going away party I could have ever asked for.
Day 16: Write about something you want to do in the next 5 years.
For me, the next five years are going to be the biggest, most influential years of my life. Three of them are going to involve starting, attending, attempting to pass, passing, and ultimately graduating law school. The one following will be dedicated to then passing the bar and then hopefully in that fifth year I'll actually become a lawyer. But that's all obvious stuff. What I really want to do in the next five years, is grow up. I know that's kind of a weird goal, but these next three plus years are going to be the most challenging years I've ever had and I want to grow. I want to grow in myself, who I am. I want to grow in my faith. I want to grow in my relationships. I want to grow in my knowledge. I want to learn everything that law school has to teach. I want to find true love. I want to find my place in the world. In five years I want to look back and realize that I'm not the same person I was today. Not that I'm ashamed of who I am now, I just want to be a better, more self-understood version of me. Today starts my 5 year challenge, (lets just hope I can finish the 5 year challenge, unlike this one:) )
My friends are cooler than yours.
Welcome back Whit, I'm so glad you're home.
"You push yourself and push yourself trying to achieve the impossible, because you know when that moment comes, everything you've done has prepared you for victory."
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