Putting that on paper makes me sound super blah, but it's the truth. Lately, I've felt uninspired and bored. The problem with that state of mind is that it easily translates to my blog posts. And the last thing I ever wanted to provide my readers with are garbage posts to fill a space. And the worst part, is I feel like I HAVE to write apology posts. I hate that I feel such guilt for taking a vacation and not posting.
This is not what I signed up for 9 years ago. It's so easy to get wrapped up in what I should be doing, instead of what I want to be doing. When I started this blog it was called "Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart." Based on how I've been feeling it should be called, "whatsoever you do, it should be blogging all the time." It's hard to not get wrapped up in feeling inadequate.
I'm the first to admit that I'm not the ideal blogger for a lot of reasons. In recent months, more like the last six months, I've felt this intense pressure to be the best blogger. Attend workshops, grow and gain followers (but only authentic followers), craft the BEST content every single day and heaven-forbid if you miss a day, your readers will hate you and stop reading your blog.
This post isn't a dig at all you incredible bloggers. Please don't take it that way. This one's not about you. Trust me, I love you, admire you and inspire to be you. This is me releasing my insecurities as a blogger and an adult by putting them into words. This is a challenge to myself. I know if I want to really make it and be a full time blogger I have to // need to do these things.
But for now, I'm letting go of the blogger guilt I have and embracing the fact that I will grow at a different rate than others. Some days, I feel like I'm a very very teeny fish attempting to keep up with all the big-blogger fish in the ocean.
There is a quote that says "Your success does not depend on the failure of others" but I think I have to change that quote to say "My success does not lessen based on the success of others." There's room for all of us in this blogging pond. PS. Jennifer at The Champagne Supernova wrote a great inspirational post and I got this image (below) from her. She's inspiring. Go show her love.I don't spend 8 hours a day blogging. I wish I could, trust me, but I cannot. I wish I could quit my job and jump into the blogging world full time. To say I'm jealous of full-time bloggers is an understatement. They're my inspiration daily to keep this little space going.
Some weeks I only blog twice and then I have to start my blog with an apology (see above). But the reality of it, is that life is busy and how you super-bloggers do it, please share your tips. And if sleeping only 3 hours a night is your tip, I can't or I'll get angry.
I don't have a newsletter that goes out with different content then what's on my blog. I'm working on that this weekend, but Denver is tempting us with 75 degree weather on Saturday so there's a huge chance I won't and instead I'll be on an outside patio.
This post is a vent, a release of energy and a promise.
I'm not the best blogger. But I love to blog and I promise that when I post, I will post interesting content. I promise that I will remain authentic, even if that means I'm not posting every day. I promise that I will support all my other blogger-friends, because if we're not in this journey together, what's the point. I promise that I'll work harder.
It's incredible what happens when you release pent-up energy. Just while writing this post, I came up with some fun ideas for posts. Stay tuned peeps, I promised interesting and that is just what you'll get. I want to blog now.
If you made it to the end of this long rambling vent session of a blog post, thanks for reading. Thanks for not only reading today, but everyday. You guys rock.