No one wants to be rejected

Good things happen in really messed up ways sometimes. Sometimes its about really messing up on your LSAT only to be accepted, or sometimes it means taking a job that might not be ‘good enough forever’ but it works for now and sometimes it’s about remembering that everyone fails, not everyone always get accepted, everyone knows the pain of rejection.

My new favorite CW soap quoted this tonight, and I’m still trying to figure out its validity, or at least its application in my life.

Everything in life… it all comes down to one thing: no one wants to be rejected. I’m not the only one who wants to feel wanted.

Is that what life is really about? Rejection and acceptance? Is life a series of either being accepted by others or rejected by them? When does this idea become too much to handle? Sometimes I think that’s life- the constant give and flow. I now know that quote applies to my life, I do not want to be rejected- Not by law schools, friends, family, relationships.

I’ve realized that in my life… what makes me content, is that true feeling of acceptance. Maybe it's more than acceptance, maybe it errs on the side of approval. But I guess that’s the life of a 22 year old, it’s sort of like the life of a 5 year old. The constant need for approval, the need to be wanted and to be loved. It’s not a bad thing, it’s a human thing.

But for me, it comes down to self acceptance. It starts with being proud of myself regardless of my acceptance to law school, regardless of my boyfriend/girlfriend status, regardless of my job. I think once I finally feel content with that, then, and only then will I find the approval I seek from those around me.