October 30, 2008

All is takes is one time.

You know those people who have ridiculously addictive personalities? Can’t get enough, can’t stop, won’t ever quit? I’m not necessarily talking about drugs or alcohol but just everything. Addicted to people, relationships or even something as lame as tv.

I never thought I was one of those people, because I know people who can’t go 5 minutes without needing the one thing their addicted too. Take one of my good friends, I honestly believe she’s addicted to having a boyfriend. Nothing wrong with that, but I’ve never known her single. Or another friend of mine is addicted to friends. That sounds funny, but in a really serious way, like he can’t stand when you have other friends than him, and he’ll ‘make your life a living hell’ without him.

Yesterday I was having a conversation when this guy asked if I’ve ever been addicted to anything (referring to drugs) which I haven't.. but I started thinking, maybe being addicted isn't such a bad thing. I mean, obviously I’m not promoting drug habits or being drunk all the time, but we coin the term addict as bad, but maybe it can be okay.

Like being addicted to someone (in a healthy sense of course), but not being able to get enough of that person? Or being addicted to your friends so much that you would do anything and always be there for them. I guess, moderation is the key word here - and I don’t really even know why this thought stirred me so much, but it did. Being addicted. Is it really something you can’t get over, or is it a mind game?

It’s like you’re a drug
It’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
It’s like I’m stuck
It’s like I’m running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It’s like the only company I seek is misery all around
It’s like you’re a leech
Sucking the life from me
It’s like I can’t breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I’m never gonna quit you over time

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me

It’s like I’m lost
It’s like I’m giving up slowly
It’s like you’re a ghost that’s haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I’ll never change my ways
If I don’t give you up now

I’m hooked on you
I need a fix
I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

Maybe being addicted to something isn’t such a bad thing - just maybe.

Post a Comment

I love hearing from all of you and greatly appreciate all your feedback and comments! xx Kristen