Leave nothing for tomorrow.

November 16, 2010

It's coming. They're coming. Finals are 19 days away. In 19 days I will be taking tests that define my last 4 months. Not only do they define my last 4 months, but they decide if I get a clerkship next summer, and a clerkship could be the beginning of a job opportunity, and a job opportunity equals a career. In 19 days, I'm going to define my career. It's absurd. It's scary, but they're coming and needless to say I'm starting to freak out a little bit.

I'm tired.
I'm starting to get worn down.
I'm wondering if I'm really cut out for this.
Am I prepared?
Will I pass?

All my self-doubts are rising to the surface and while I'm doing all I can to quash them before they get too much... sometimes its nice to sulk about it. But not too long of course, because just when I start to think I'm all I am are my insecurities, I have people that shake me out of it. I have this new boy who makes me happier than ever. My study buddies and law school comrades remind me that we're all in the same boat, and then my best friends back home remind me that in 25 days I'll be back in Arizona celebrating the Christmas season, and all this will be worth it, all my hard work will pay off. So I'm gonna disappear for the next couple weeks. I'm gonna bury my face in the books and get down to it. Because in a month I want to feel secure in a job well done.

Right before I moved to Omaha, Whit gave me this quote on a home-made CD,
"The leading rule for the lawyer, as for the man of every other calling is diligence. Leave nothing for tomorrow which can be done today."

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