wandering into the unknown.

so i’m gonna come out and say it -

I’m nervous/anxious to embark on my life as an adult. Granted I still have a year left, but then when that comes, will I be ready? This entire summer revolved around, “what are you going to do with your life” “what do you wanna be” “where are you going to live” questions, and while those kind of ideas are fun for the first, um…2 times you hear them, they start wearing me out.

I guess I’m struggling with the idea, that just because I graduate college, means I’m an adult. In what “life book” does it say that, “once one graduates college, they are ready for adulthood?” Where’s the line between college senior and responsible adult? and what makes people think it cant be blurred?

I want to be a writer. I want to be a writer that inspires people. And, I think there’s a difference between inspiring people by doing rad things, like mission work, being a doctor, saving lives and I think theres a way of inspiring people through words and through the reassurance of your struggles and achievements. I want to be the difference in someones life - it doesn't have to be big - home-run out of the park difference -but something that makes people think. When does wanting something mean achieving it? Will I achieve it once I reach mature adulthood?

That's it! Once I graduate (May 2, 2009, 1030am) I will start achieving my goals, become a well acclaimed writer and make differences. Be prepared internet-bloggers, I’m about to rock your world.